I love the doubt

I love the doubt:

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I love the doubt.

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I love it.

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I need it.

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The non-believers.

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The people who don’t believe in your dreams.

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You need it.

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I need it.

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When your belief is so strong, no one’s opinion will change it.

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No one.

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Do not let other people’s opinions of you be greater than your opinion of yourself.

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Never.

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Spoke with a friend today at a party we hosted.

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Hadn’t seen him in almost a decade.

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He’s doing well in his career as an investor.

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Had a few questions on the direction of my career.

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This October I’ll have been a venture capitalist for 5 years.

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Not a short amount of time.

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But I know I will not do this forever.

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I know I will be doing something else.

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So I told him that, and he was surprised.

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He followed up with ‘so why do you do all this writing?’

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Many reasons.

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Even wrote a poem about it called I write haha.

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But really, to understand myself and the world.

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To share my knowledge and insight hoping someone learns something from all of this work.

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I know they will.

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The best part is it’s not about me.

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It’s about the writing and how it makes them feel.

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Remember this, human beings are just vessels of knowledge.

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That’s it.

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You’re here today, gone tomorrow.

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So why not do something with your life?

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It’s what I told him.

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But he wasn’t convinced.

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He said ‘how are you going to stay relevant?’

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Fair question.

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Never stop writing.

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All this writing ain’t for nothing.

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Spending years of your craft ain’t for nothing.

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I didn’t share my work for years by design because I needed to do better.

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I needed to be better.

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I needed to practice.

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Now I have.

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And I have almost 800 blog posts and 250 book notes to show for it.

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That work ain’t nothing.

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So I told him, this is my dream.

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Turn all of this into a media business while constantly pushing myself to accomplish what seems impossible.

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I never thought I would study medicine in the UK.

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I never thought I would live alone in Scotland at 17.

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I never thought I’d graduate from 2 of the best universities in the world.

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I never thought I would leave medicine.

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I never thought I would get a job in an industry I had barely heard about.

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I never thought I would read 50 books in a year.

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I never thought I would lose 25 pounds in 3 months.

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I never thought I would write 500 blog posts and book notes in a year.

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I never thought I’d run a marathon in 4 months while treadmill training.

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I never thought any of this.

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And yet here I am.

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So please doubt me more.

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I love it.

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I love the doubt.

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